How to Face The Challenging Situation in My Life?

I was very sad expecting my salary but my boss told me that the governments have new rules about their pension and monthly salary of all the employee. Before, every 25fh of the month, they got their salary for the pensioner and 27th of the day was the schedule employees salary. It changes our scedukes too. Budgets back home are always out of control. Maybe I am not the only one who have financial problems. Instead of getting mad, I accepted the challenge every now and then.Accepting the truth that this is the way of my life. Being tested all the time, I considered this as a lesson to learn how to handle everything. I won't lost my hope that one day, I will be in a good shape.

The coming 9th year death anniversary of my grandmother trigger the shortcoming of financial status again. The old tradition and beliefs hold those part of our life. Unlike the Muslim people likey boss, they are no longer celebrating any kind of death anniversary. The Filipinos are always doing it and just like with my family. We agreed giving budget for the coming death anniversary. Well, it is also a sign of our love to my grandmother. She deserves to be remember. And I supposedly to be at home this time. But there are so many mountains along my way. I almost couldn't breath but I need to think it positively. I can't deny my real feelings. Yes, I am worried about my son and his children. He is still jobless. No one can help him except me. He is my only son. This is the negative side of having one child. It's not my will. God gave me only one. How I wish to have more children before but it was not granted to me. I lost my husband too young and doesn't have someone with me. I focus on my family members to educate them. There's a lot of things I could not understand how unfair my life is.

Anyway, if I have the power to turn back the time, I will do what is better but I just smile and feel no regret. I hope that everything will be alright. Keep on praying and believing for the best option to endure today and tomorrow. As long as I live , I will not change my legacy of being helpful to those who need no matter what it takes from me.

I don't know what to write but this is what I am feeling today. I just write it out to lighten my heavy burden in my heart. I cant talk to anyone even my family. I dont want to talk but I feel free writing down my emotion to eased my breath away.

Thank you for being with me now. I am so grateful my #hiveph and @asean.hive family for your support.

Keep believing that there is always a way to all circumstances in our life.

HIVE ON

@ OLIVIA08