LOH #239 // THINKING BACK & REALIZING

This particular prompt question, the one that I would be replying to now, I like the format that it takes. The answers to it that come straight in my head have so much depth, so much that I can't pour all out for fear of many things, all of which are within myself, but whatever I don't share here, I'd stay true to me and ponder on them for self-rvaluation sakes.

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Yesterday, or so, I was thinking about the few ventures I had tried and given up on without even realizing. Then I thought about all the things I had always wanted to be and to do. A lot of which would have been unusual in the time when i wanted to do them but which have been normalized now. It brought the talk of, "the thing running through your mind is also running through someone else's mind" to my thinking. And while I don't see me still going through only a few of them, the most others still lay somewhere around my mind. But until now, I haven't pushed myself up to get started.

What held me back? What are Mt excuses? Procrastination, fear, and shyness(not shyness perse but maybe laidback-ism and indifference). Those spoilt a lot for me. They robbed me of a good number of things that I could have achieved and highly likely a better place that I could have been. For every time, I would decide I wanted to do this, and then for whatever reason, I would keep pushing it further for a time when I assume it would be more convenient. For a time that never came. Somehow, that was my way of evading these tasks that would have led me to venture out and leave my comfort zone. But here i am. And that's fine.

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